1.The sweet beginning
1.甜美的开端
My abusive relationship started out really sweet. There were romantic date nights, spontaneous getaways, flowers, sweets, teddy bears, gifts and tons of attention and care. I did not feel anything wrong from the beginning. But then the relationship turned out sour. As soon as he realized that I was his, he stopped putting efforts into our relationship.
我的男友经常虐待我,但其实我们的关系一开始的时候很甜美。有许多约会的晚上,我们都很浪漫地度过,怡然自得的旅行,鲜花,糖果,泰迪熊,礼物以及无数的关爱。在开始的时候我没感觉到任何不对的地方。但是我们的关系最终变坏了。一旦他开始意识到我已经是他的了,他就不再花心思来经营我们的感情了。
2.Red wine is the best friend
2.红酒成了最好的朋友
When my ex hung out with his friends, red wine was my best friend. I knew I could not meet my friends because he would get angry at me, so I filled my evenings and nights with tears and too much red wine. I did not feel better, though. I woke up with severe headaches and felt weak and exhausted.
当我的前任男友和朋友鬼混的时候,红酒成了我最好的朋友。我知道我不能去见我的朋友,因为他会对我生气,因此我每天晚上以泪洗面,用大量红酒来麻痹自己。但是我并没有感觉好一点。我醒来的时候,头很疼,而且感觉疲惫不堪,身体虚弱。
3.I have made myself a priority
3.我现在最重视自己
If no one made me a priority, I came to a conclusion that I had to do it myself. Now I know that no one, including a boyfriend, is going to value me until I learn to value and respect myself first. I stop waiting for approval from others. If I want to do something, I will do it. I’m still trying to put myself first in any situation and I believe that I have enough power to move forward.
如果没有人重视我,我最终懂得需要自己珍惜自己。现在我知道,如果我不懂得重视和尊重自己,我的男朋友或者其他人也不会珍视我。我不再等待其他人的同意。如果我想做什么事情,我就会去做。在任何时候,我都会将自己放在第一位,我相信我有足够的能力一直走下去。