Because now I was ready to be happy." I went out with my friends and family, and we celebrated. And about 4 hours later after the celebration, I went back home. I went back home, and wanted to, before going to sleep, just for one last time savor, enjoy that feeling of joy, of ecstasy, of pure bliss that I earned.
我会变得快乐”我跟亲朋好友外出庆祝 庆祝会后4小时 我回到家 我回到家 睡觉前 想再回味一下胜利的喜悦与快乐
And I sat down on my bed and I suddenly, without any warning, the exact same feeling, the exact same emotion, the exact same knot returned.
我坐在床上 突然毫无预警地 完全相同的感觉 完全相同的情感 那个结又回来了
And I started to cry- not the same tears of joy that I cried 4 hours earlier, but tears of pain and helplessness. The knot returned. And I thought, "well, maybe it's the high follow… It's the low following high." And I hoped it would go away. But it didn't go away.
我放声大哭 不是4小时前喜极而泣的泪水 而且痛苦无助的泪水 那个结又回来了 我想“也许这是高潮后的失落” 我指望结会再消失 但它没有
And a few weeks later, I realized what it was and this time I really nailed it. I understood. I would have to be the world champion to really be happy.
几周后 我意识到它究竟是什么 这一次我彻底搞清楚了 我明白了 我要成为世界冠军才能真正快乐
I graduated from high school. I had two years before I had to enlist in the military. And I took off to England. In England, I lived in London and joined Stripes which was the squash club in Ealing Broadway, where Jansher Khan, world champion at the time used to train. Because I said, "this is my goal; this is my objective."And I would come in every single day and watch Jansher Khan and imitate him.
高中毕业后 离我入伍服役还有2年空余时间 我去了英格兰 住在伦敦 加入了位于伊灵大道的条纹壁球俱乐部 当时世界冠军加希尔卡恩常常在那训练 因为我对自己说“这是我的目标” 我每天都去俱乐部 看加希尔卡恩训练 模仿他